Flashing.....*lights* lights* lights* lights*

I look up and I look down and I look all the way around. They are there when I close my eyes. They persist when I stop to cry. Can't pretend, even if I try. Denying them would be a lie. That's why I stare out way up high. Still looking for an answer why.
I need to leave, but don't know where. These circumstances are too unfair. I'm still under a spell. You don't know me very well. But I can't make myself care. This is why I sit and stare. Don't try. Don't even dare.

The best side and worst side of everybody you have ever known. It's disheartening. 

Jamming TPR. I don't like that Jenny Humphrey knows me so well. 

I'm not listening to you,
I am wandering right through existence.
With no purpose and no drive,
In the end we're all alive, alive.

2000 years I've been awake,
Waiting for the day to shake.


Dear all of you who've wronged me,
I am, I am a zombie.
Again, again you want me to fall on my head.
I am, I am, I am a zombie,
How low, how low, how low will you push me?
To go, to go, to go, before I,
Lie down dead.

Blow the smoke right off the tubes,
Kiss my gentle burning bruise,
I'm lost in time.
But to all the people left behind,
You are walking dumb and blind.
Blind.

For 2000 years I've been awake,
Waiting for the day to shake.


Dear, all of you who've wronged me,
I am, I am a zombie.
Again, again you want me to fall on my head.
I am, I am, I am a zombie,
How low, how low, how low will you push me,
To go, to go, to go, before I,
Lie down dead.
I'm dead, I'm dead, I'm dead.

To all of you who wronged me,
I am, I am a zombie
Again, again you want me to fall on my head.
I am, I am, I am, a zombie,
How low, how low, how low, will you push me,
To go, to go, to go, before I,
Lie down dead? - Zombie (The Pretty Reckless)


But now I am happier than I ever knew possible. I am finding my life purpose, and I see nothing but doors opening. Forever. And I know this to be true and I will do all in my power to fulfull my role in the Universe. Always give the world gratitude and respect, and it will treat you the same. I'm in the middle of a spiritual awakening. I read somewhere that it would cost me some friends, and it has. But I don't care. When they open their eyes and are able to lift themselves out from such low states of consciosness, I will be there to help and guide. In my own way, naturally, because I do not know what the fuck I am doing either! Have a beautiful day :)